When Sally Came For Harry
In the world of passive versus active
Meg Ryan pretending to achieve orgasm
over a sandwich in a deli
is a kick in the ass to the social construct
Sally is telling Harry
in no uncertain terms
that the phallus is phony
much to Billy Crystal’s wonderment
Sally has taken
all of the power
into her lily white hands
and without touching herself
dismantles the social construction
of dominance
she fakes
the satisfaction
she’d present a male lover
to keep his illusions alive
the illusion of his own prowess
if she, and apparently, she does
control her own sexuality, her own orgasm
her own joy and satisfaction
then she has no real need for cock
except to assuage the need
of the man attached to it
all those polite social behaviours
we equate with sexuality
icing on the cake
Meg Ryan moaning over coleslaw
in a New York deli
cutting through every illusion
in Billy Crystal’s head
When Harry Met Sally, Rob Riener, 1998
Joining the Foreign Legion
suppose you wanted to join
the French Foreign Legion
just like in the movies
all of your life
you’ve desired to be a man
without a past
looked forward
to being without a future
so reveling in the present
you sign up
only to find yourself
in a Brechtian world
scripted by the poetic ghost of Genet
and inhabited by the penis-towers
of Rainer Fasbinder’s imagination
you are shocked
this world (the film you inhabit)
is not as you know it
the patriarchal representations of your safe world
have evaporated
in its place – a new horizon
and in this erotic spectacle of masculinity
male bodies become, as Foucault said,
“polymorphous palaces of pleasure”
you have always depended
on the straight world
for representations of masculinity
tried to justify yourself
by reenacting them
reinforcing the things
you have always believed to be true
never realizing
that masculinity is learned behavior
you remember the heroic stoicism
of the Legionnaires from the 1966 film Beau Gueste
and could never imagine Doug McClure
kissing a man for any reason
but in this brave new world
the creatures in it
are outside the binary
you have used to balance
your brain
in this cinema
every conversation
questions gender
until biology
is just a class
you had back in high school
at the end of Claire Denis’ fine film Beau Travail
when Denis Lavant
says his sad goodbye with a bullet
you can hear Fass
binder cry
on some distant quiet dune
Brad Davis too
all those men marching
that silent army
unseen
by the gaze of all
but a few
Beau Gueste, Douglas Heyes, 1966
Beau Travail, Claire Denis, 2000
Querelle, Rainer N. Fassbinder, 1982
Practicing for my funeral
in Peggy Rajaski’s film
Trevor is dead on the front lawn
a butcher knife in his back, then
equally mort in his Marat tub
Trevor’s clever suicidal theatrics forebode
Trever is all Harold and Maude confused
about gender and death
and where he fits in to his community
in the struggle to navigate
that eddy’s around his young bones
he fights himself away from his own identity
eventually thinking himself a villain
and becoming an enemy in his own skin
his parents attempt to purge his path
with a Dairy Queen Minister
who only muddies Trevor’s water
with deep binary platitudes
and the simultaneous stumbling
of someone in their own purgatory of denial
murkily dressed up as knowledge
outed, shamed and abandoned by all at school
Trevor experiences a loss of innocence
and with no representations that reflect his identity
sees no Diana Ross escape route
until he wakes up
on the other side of desperation
and an aspirin overdose
to discover
a friendly young wise man
Trevor recognizes him
as being from the same tribe
as though his entire childhood
had been spent
on an endless dessert
and an endless search
with no water in sight
salvation as small
as the recognition
of belonging
not every gender battle
is a loss
Trevor, Peggy Rajski, 1994
Found Poem + poetic sidebar
(this dialogue was taken, verbatim from the film Powertool)
suck that cock
suck that cock
suck that big cock
lick my ass
rim my ass
stick your tongue in there
let me fuck your ass
it feels so good
you love it don’t you?
you love it bitch
it feels good
oh yea, oh yea
let me fuck your ass you faggot
let me fuck your ass you jail house faggot
let me fuck your ass
I’m fucking your ass
you love it don’t you bitch?
I’m gonna cum
…
it was Susan Bordo’s “fully erect penis”
in John Travis’ prison for men
masculinity is not about gender
the man lunching on tube steak
as though it contained
the cure for cancer and a key to freedom
is a passively willing catcher
passive being his position
to the active thrust of his lover
active being his role
both men just players
while a prison cell away
the legendary Jeff Stryker
lowers his gaze
their pleasure but entertainment
for his
as Mr. Stryker
strokes his own object
is captured
by that other gaze
the one
from
every boy
in town
Powertool: 10th Anniversary, John Travis, 1986
Senjo no Meri Kurisumasu
to some eyes
in some minds
the sight
of David Bowie
marching
through
culture
gender
and war
to kiss
Ryuichi Sakamato
was no less
incendiary
than the flash
over Hiroshima
the roar
over Nagasaki
a thousand cranes
blushed
Yukio Mishima rethought his past
this small kiss
shifting tides
Merry Christmas, Mr. Laurence, Nagisa Oshima, 1983
Pat Garrett and Lola and Bilidikid
what no one ever seems to talk about
when the Peckinpah gore settles
is that Pat Garrett and Billy the Kid
is a good old fashioned love story
Sheriff Garrett loves Billy
so much
he has to kill him
to prove it
and Billy,
sweet as he is
loves Garrett
right back
enough to let him
put a bullet
at the full stop
of his ending
(as the suicidal Mayakovsky
might have said)
the naked Rita Coolidge
and the various
unnamed
and unclothed Mexican whores
might confuse
the gender issues
for a second
may even alter
the gaze
of the viewer
but Billy,
barefoot and tender
is the object
of Garrett’s
desire…
…
and in another movie,
in Cowboy Berlin
neither Lola or Bilidikid
can perform themselves
beyond the reality
of the gender
they exhibit
they are
as doomed
as gunslingers
who
cannot adapt
they are
the old world
spun to the edges
weighed down
by a gender politic
they cannot outdraw
but in the fading sunset
there is hope
a man can have emotion
and masculinity
Lola’s optimistic and resourceful friend
intones
“I am a woman with balls”
and the friendly taxi driver
smiles
in bemused flirtation
somewhere else
Billy Wilder turns over
in his grave, giggles
remembers Jack Lemon
on the water
with Joe Brown
turns over again
and returns
to the eternally peaceful slumber
we wish on all our heroes
Lola and Bilidikid, Kutlug Ataman, 1998
Pat Garrett and Billy the Kid, Sam Peckinpah, 1973
Sexuality is per formative: the Suitcase Handle
For Robert Eads
it does not matter
how you are perceived
it is
how you perceive yourself
we are conditioned
meat sacks
from birth
society, friends,
family and foes
pound us out
drive us
into pre-cut molds
and
set us
out to dry
Walt Disney and Herr Hitler
both loved the cinema
both shared
visions of conformity
and knew
that in some small way
God
was in the details
and the dovetails
whereas Annie Sprinkle,
suitcase handle in hand
(I would suggest)
knows that beauty
is in truth
that sexuality
is per formative
beauty
a series of illusions
and always
in the eye
of the beholder
I now know
what these film makers know
it is nothing
to become a man
or a woman
but
to be a good person
makes
you immortal
Linda/Les & Annie – The First Female to Male Transsexual Love Story, Annie Sprinkle, Albert Jacoma & Jonny Armstong, 1989
© Michael Dennis, 2014
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